Who am I?

I have always wanted to write a diary. But it seems that every time I would sit down and begin to write I wouldn't know what to write. It isn't that I didn't know what to say, it was that I didn't know how honest I should be or who I should write as. I guess I should explain something so you will understand. See, it seems as though I have two sides to me. I call them Good Shar and Bad Shar. Good Shar is the full-time conservative mom, the God-fearing daughter, the once devoted wife, the diabetic who does everything right, the woman who can take on anything and win and never gives up. Bad Shar is self-destructive, smokes and drinks on occasion, gives up on fighting her diabetes, has suicidal thoughts, and is purely motivated by her demanding sex drive. So as you can see it is hard to decide who to write as because I am both of these people. This blog is my way of exposing both sides of me. Then maybe you can decide whom is most truthful and real.